Or is it? Actually, today is the day…for me!
Some time today we through the rest of the stuff in the van and head out to camp. R told us he was going to go ahead and stay at camp, and I was looking forward to it. It hasn’t been just R and me in close to a year, and there have been plenty of Ben and Noah times. It would have been nice. But R has come to realize there is too much he wants to do before being *at* MMF for ten days. And I respect that.
Which also means I will spend the night alone at camp which I’ve done for years and come to like it. Although I won’t be alone. Through the years, lots of men have started coming early. I know of at least two others who arrive today, although one will set up his camp and then head over to see his family a couple days before heading back for Tuesday, the official first day. But the point is, there will be other Faeries onsite if I’m feeling lonely.
Tonight I will be naked under the stars. And it doesn’t matter that I’ve gained almost half my weight back. It won’t stay on for long. I know what I want from life, and it’s to have a long one. But what has happened is that I am more and more accepting who and what I am. And I am not Skinny Manny. I am not going to look like a superhero at 59. I have the body I have, and I need to love myself and my body. So despite the fact that I don’t have Chris Hemsworth’s body—which I wouldn’t hate—I have to really get it deep that Chris Hemsworth already has Chris Hemsworth’s body. And probably has to work a frig of a lot of hours to keep it.
And most of all, as Oscar Wilde once said: “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.”
That is what I hope to truly take into myself this Midwest Men’s Festival. Truly love myself. And when I come home, I am going to be ready to finally truly lead the life I want. The biggest part of that is to get away from the hell hole where I work and to be a full-time writer. As well as husband and father to two wonderful women. And jokester too. And a person who will eradicate and exorcise any and all forms of racism, phobia and misogyny from his soul!
Because in this world today which includes some so-called “leaders” that are so much of the problem, there’s no room for hate of any kind. There is only room for love.
It is time. More than time. I’m ready.
That’s what Faeries are all about. Creating FABulousness and beauty and love. That is why our camps are filled with lights and veils and fabric and lace. Beauty. There is too much hate in the world.
Anyone want to join me on becoming who they’re supposed to be?
(that’s my Faerie name!)